The husband and wife together with derailment I was unwilling to divorce

I encountered unprecedented challenges, I did not expect the humble and humble the husband had an affair, I'm sure that between us, had no marital relations, now the rest is just a little touch of affection.


I dare to admit that he is a bad woman, encountered one in love with my lover at the mahjong table two years ago, he is good, funny, humor, handsome, rich, very amusing woman happy, I now have can not get away, he and I together will always buy a box of Cathay force to meet me, and I'm getting jealous of his wife. Always realize that he hurt me, I asked him if he wanted to give up this can not see the dawn of love, he said never in fact He is also very upset, and I have vowed to divorce, and so he. He said we have a long-term future, must I carefully consider well their family problems.
I really love, but also really does not fit, he always said that I am not fit to do a simple lover, yes, I can not, I do not want another woman and I share his, I want him only belongs to a I was greedy, Is this insatiable would make me sooner or later lose him is you?
I really want to marry him, although only a marriage certificate. I give him to say, this is not possible for no apparent reason go on, or divorce, or as soon as the end of the relationship between our two, his distraught questioned God why can not have two beloved woman?
I understand that he could not bear to leave loved his wife and children, but also could not bear to cut off relations with me. May be my marriage, such as chewing tasteless, seems to not get along, I suspected that the home is useless to look down on their men. Proper distance and obstacles between me and him have their own husband actually a big problem, he has also been a woman on the outside, and his three not only know my phone number also know that QQ initially description of the They relationship, I have done them, I scolded her once, but she was every day with the public telephone call to abuse me shameless purpose is to not wait to pour out of my out of the house.
I find that her husband afterwards he gave me an explanation, he was very calm began to discuss with my divorce settlement, lay clear to say all I have done wrong. Thought that those things that no one will know, I did not expect, finally revealed the secret. He said to let her call is to understand the vent, Tongtong baskets purpose round their's dream.
Originally want to divorce him, I always have are full of courage, since not see hope, but had to passively accept her husband's abandoned, suddenly very sad and helpless, I do not know what to miss, but also away from the do not want to, I do how the distribution of property or minor, the key is the 8-year-old child whom life? I sometimes wanted to fight for the custody of the child and sometimes do not want her husband he let me choose, he can give me a lot of conditions, since divorce on the line. How should I do?